though i learn things slower den others,bud at least i gt the concept.

just gimmi lil time & i cud finish my work.

really,i aint as stupid as i look.

time to prove tt i aint a burden/disturbance.

side notes:i hate to be accused & forced.

i don't only request ppl to mind their own business,
i,myself also don't mind other ppls business as well.

please,thr is many stuff tt is nt my fault.stop putting blames on me.
& i hate this word"respect".
TELL ME.
AM I SUPPOSE TO RESPECT PPL WHEN PPL R ACCUSING ME?

the class thingy is my fault,
he come or dont come over is my fault.
going home late vs reaching hm late is my prob.
passing gor msg to dad,dad not happy den i kena.
for everyth i have to ans twice.
a gd ans to each side.
i hate to live for others.i swear.

im always at wrong.
yes,i am.very true.
becos i am always the middle man.
how sad is tt.
really,i really wana say I HATE TO BE MIDDLE MAN.

really this is the last very last time im gona say,
stop using me as a middle person,everyone.
i have my own life,stop using my life as a bridge frm urs to others.

im so fsick n tired to be place in the middle for others to use.

why can't everyone just be more responsible for ur ownself?
i ain't suppose to be responsible for everyones mistake.
im really at my limit.
i am so sorry.
please leave me alone for awhile.
felt disrespected?
yea.tts hw rude i am.

i have my way of understanding & you have ur way of explaining.
we cant communicate.
clear?
tts totally wads gg on recently.

really,just leave me alone for awhile.just awhile.
i really dun wana offend anyone,
just stay away frm me for ur own gd.

i am really tired,exhausted.
i really appreciate everyth u've done for me.

gimmi sometime.
i really nd to open up more.i noe.
bud do u noe hw hard is tt for me?
words r always easy.

dont tell me to do this n tt,
it aint easy for me,its nt tt im trying to limit myself.
i've gt no choice,i didnt want it bud i did it.
dont make it sound so easy.

please leave me alone.
im so fucked up now.
get lost .everyone.
may i noe is thr anyone who passby this blog?

i just freak myself out.
smth wasnt quite right.
i noe.i noe.i noe.
i've been bad for these few weeks.
i just cant keep my cool.for some reasons, i noe im in deep shit right now.
too many things are processing in my mind
worst stil, none of them is gd stuff.
i just dont get it.abt everyth.
everyth is just too complicated for me to explain.
so i had no choice but to remain silent.

i am so sorry tt i keep losing my temper.
i didnt meant it.
nth happened.
bud im sadded.
perhaps its becos of my stupid thoughts again.
when you ask my why,
i cant even explain.tts when i fedup n walk away.

when i could unfold every single thoughts/feelings in my mind,
tts when i'll be back.

i have to stop worrying for everyth.
am really,tired.
so lost.
hope is smth sweet & bitter.
ppl are getting more & more annoying.

anyw,sch stuff really...omg..
have been paying attention in class from the start of this sem.
kinda noe wads going on.
BUT,i realise im nt the only one,
almost everyone had been studying too.

btw,i want to be a maintainance engineer rather den design engineer.
kinda abit no point if im lucky to get into ntu anyw.
alright.i just have to do my best for now.
bud..tired.
shat,tmr stil nd to get smth frm gor n deliver back home to mummy.
bud..wah..tmr thurs..
& guess wad..i haven been touching autocad.
hmm,i guess i'll do it tmr before gg to meet gor or wad.

i miss you.
have been downloading the autocad software frm ytd til duno when for the 4th time.
1st time: stuck at 72%.
2nd time: power off in mid dl.
3rd time: internet off in mid dl.
4th: dlding right now. - 3%...

am so tired.
have nt been havin quality sleep for ages.
have nt been doing much tutorials.
have nt been happy since...cant rmb.
have nt been learning much.
have nt been...been myself recently.
urgh.i have to set myself into busy mode.
i am so free but lazy.i nd a study partner.

tell ya wad.im off to tidy up my room NOW.
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18/10/08
08:42pm
Please prepare 3 dollar for your electronics textbook next monday if not the lecturer f you.
Oh i don't have everyono's number so spread this around.
From cls rep,
Sin lih.
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LOL.

ooh,met mr samuel @ citysquare few days ago.
w/ a chinese gal.lol.
kinda look more chubby den last time..lesser hair too..
bud stil handsome &charming.haha.
Happy 18th Birthday Ng Han Kiat!
sorry urh, cant spend ur bdae with you fer da whole dae=(
bud bud hope u like the pressie?
tao one was great right?i forgt to sign the cup..shit..i shud have done tt long ago.
anyw why u cried?i didnt rape you,y u so sad?=D
okok...
rmb to update me wad happen after u reach josh hse.
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wow,today..computer aid drafting..
i cant rmb wad she teach cos she basically fly thru the whole lesson.
shooo~
den next unit..
den next tutorial..
i haven absorb a single thing n she MOVED ON ALRDY.
she teach damn fast until i cudnt bear to blink my eyes.
just 3 blinks= shoo~next topic.
btw,her lesson was frm EIGHT to TWELVE.4FULL HR.
p.s...her make up is as thick as the wall..
shes helpful...
shes...better den osk.

went for Gems today.music app.
wayne keep asking "wads ur GERMS."LOL
anyw, music app was my cup of tea in brief=)
hope to get dist?i try=)

am tired.
i don't care abt many things anymore.
i wish for 1 thing now,needing it badly..
knowledge/wisdom.
i am bloody stupid.plus i really cant focus...
oh well.
2 word for me,buck up.
finally friday is coming,my turn for the GEMs.
music appreciation=D

actually,so far i haven regret choosing aeronautical engineering.
i wudnt survive in business/accoutancy.
although engineering doesnt really sound as gd as business course to sm ppl,
bud tell ya,
engineering is hot,aeronautical engineering rocks.
engineering practical is FUN,engineering tutorial is brain cell-consuming.lol

im glad i didnt go for jc.
come on..l1b5 of 16 doesnt get me into any gd jcs.
bud a l1r4 of 10 cud let me pick my fav course.
if i cud enter university after diploma,i cud go ntu & start frm yr 2 of the course.
dip+degree=5 yrs;
a- lvl +degree =5 yrs.
why not choose the fun route.=D
2nd day into sem2.
seems like the rest of the modules is alright.
except for tt Oral Comm.

oh yah..
today started with Intro to Engineering(ITOE) practical..
woa..cool..felt so gd to step into workshops again & see the machines..
was assign with our own mahine & start cutting plus drilling the workpiece.
it took me quite a long while to familiarize since its like..1 yr plus since i finished my o lvl DnT.

so itoe is my fav module..
no lecture,no exam.=D

alright=)
hope my GPA wud improve for this sem.
cya.
finally,the explorer work now.
the explorer was dead for the whole ytd.
i got the internet,
i got the msn,
i cant use internet explorer.
sucky.

alright sch started today.
smhow i like sch days.
its better den being a rotting potato at home.
i am so happy today.
the very last day of this vacation.
i realise i feel insecure in everyth.
nth, anyone can be certain abt.
what i nd is just love, safe, simple & peace.
bud yet,i cudnt persuade myself to believe its possible to have anyone of them.
assurance?will it work on me?
words are just alphabets.i need to see & feel to be assured.
i am always lost.
'cos i don't believe.

ok,i see myself nt trusting anyone including myself.
bullshit.
i just hate to be like this.
haiz=)
gotta get back to sch real soon.
this semester timetable is so damn screwed up lurh.
lets just hope tt the modules aint tt sucky as last sem.

alright,next.
the gems thingy,took up Music Appreciation for this sem.
yea,tt's my 1st choice,manage to kop it before its gone.
bud..wah..took up another 2 hrs per week.

well,its been half a yr since sch started.
its really fast urh?
Fc 5(KFC) had just finished its renovation,finally thr's aircons,tiles,new windows & more seats..etc.
anyw,sp has this "learn a sport" thingy, its like Gems,bud it only gives 4 cca points after completing the thingy.

alright,enuf of my craps.
see you guys soon.
dont ask me what i did today.
i totally gt no memory of what happened today.
although im physically on earth,bud my mind is smwhr in the space.
i've gt no expression on my face today.
is this called a bored day or a peaceful day?
What is your Sign of Karma?
Aquarius
You desperately want to fit in to a group and belong. Unfortunately, you are fated to always set yourself apart and be mistrustful. Social groups do not receive you warmly because of your superior stance. Your karmic path is to feel pulled between a need to belong and for freedom of original thought. The first step towards evolving for you may be as simple as admitting that you feel like an outsider always looking in -- and that deep down you are lonely and unhappy. This may be hard for you to do because you have likely developed an elaborate facade based on the idea that 'being different is cool' and that you are somehow better than everyone else. Or you may be so frustrated trying to function in groups that you have become a follower -- seemingly content to stand back stage. Realize that someone that sees things in a different way can be a valuable contributor to a group -- breaking up the group think and making sure everyone's freedoms are respected.


Your Rebellion Sign
Capricorn
Uranus doesn't want to spend much time in Capricorn, but it does the best it can with its seven-year span. Capricorn likes the traditional way of doing things but, with the influence of Uranus, acknowledges that perhaps modernization isn't all that bad. Your generation might have, early on, some problems associated with authority. The tension that you feel may be a result of Uranus struggling for more influence. You'll make changes to the world around you during your life, but they will lean more toward the useful and practical than the extravagant and monumental. You might feel insecure about your future, so you may find yourself making certain changes for the sole purpose of ensuring that your life will always be comfortable and secure. You understand, though, that any changes you make now will influence your whole life.


spiritual sign
Capricorn
You are part of a 14 year group of people who are conservative and traditional in spiritual aspirations and religious outlook. Your age group returns to some traditional basics in religion, and also traditional styles in music and art. Classical music and literature have a revival with your age group, and a great deal of inspiration is gained from the masters of arts, music, literature, and philosophy throughout history. Your age group is contemplative and reflective about religious matters and you take an objective and logical approach to religious issues. Many of you are cynics and critics of spiritual and metaphysical ideas.
Other age groups criticize your group for not having enough heart and compassion. Sometimes this is true and is evidenced by some unusually crafty and manipulative fraud and deception that occurs in the higher ranks of governments and large businesses.


Your Power Sign
Scorpio
When Pluto enters its ruling Sign of Scorpio, the blanket of mystery may be pulled back as previously hidden things begin to resurface. Scorpio is the Sign of Sex, so those born with Pluto in Scorpio will be surrounded for much of their lives by a focus on sex and sexuality. Fatalities as a direct result of sexually transmitted diseases skyrocketed during this time, something that the children of this generation are faced with every day. For the first time in history, young people are more concerned about dying as a result of sexual escapades than they are about accidental pregnancy. There is a positive side to the revelations of this generation, however. Activism for human rights reclaimed the ears of the world, and more and more digressions from the 'societal norm' gained acceptance in today's society.


What is your Rising Sign?
Sagittarius
If your Rising Sign is in Sagittarius, happy is how people see you. Doesn't matter if you're in a foul mood, you look for all the world to be the consummate optimist, the open, friendly adventurer typified by Sagittarius. On the other hand, Sagittarians are often restless and contentious; they bore easily and sometimes pick fights for the fun of it. You give an impression of such indifference that others may say some crazy, unexpected or even hurtful things to you, expecting their comments to roll right off your back! You can't help it -- you're just exuding that characteristic Archer cool.


Your Sun Sign
LibraSeptember 23 - October 22
Libra is the seventh Sign of the Zodiac, and it is at this point in the Zodiac that we start to see a shift. While the first six Signs of the Zodiac focus on the individual, the last six focus on the individual's contact with others and with the world. Librans are first and foremost focused on others and how they relate to them. We can call this the Sign of partnership with a capital 'P' because these folks do not want to be alone! For a Libran, everything is better if it's done as a pair. Librans are good when paired up, too, since they epitomize balance, harmony and a sense of fair play. While they are true team players at work, their favorite partnership is at home: marriage. Librans feel most complete when they are coupled up with their lover, forever.
It's the Scales which symbolize Libra, and just like that balancing mechanism wants to stay even, Librans want to be on an even keel. Think of the Scales of Justice and how they work at striking the right balance. Likewise, Librans are objective, just and want to do what's best for everyone. It's possible, though, that this penchant for fairness is for a different reason: Librans abhor conflict. The Scales study every possible angle in the hopes of achieving peace and harmony, so much so that others may see them as fickle and indecisive. If that's what it takes to avoid a confrontation, that's fine with the Scales. The Libra-born are keen strategists, organizing groups with poise and getting the job done (in keeping with the Cardinal Quality assigned to this Sign). Further, you can expect the Scales to be companionable, sociable folks.


communication sign
Libra
One of your greatest assets is your ability to see both sides of an issue, and to negotiate and bring about compromise and reconciliation. Tactful, reasonable, and with considerable social finesse, you work well with people in business as well as in personal relationships. You are objective and somewhat detached from emotional bias, and make an excellent consultant, mediator, or public relations person. You insist upon fairness and seek to bring harmony or at least peaceful coexistence between people, and your diplomacy is a benefit in any business or social situation. You also have fine aesthetic sensitivities and could work in an artistic or cultural environment.

love sign
Leo
Venus in Leo is a sure sign of someone who is larger than life, at least where love is concerned. Showy, gregarious, loyal and extravagant only begin to describe this fun-seeking individual. These folks love to be loved and are hard to miss in any social situation, having a knack as they do for lighting up a room. The one thing these souls crave is someone who can appreciate what they're all about and love them for it. In return, plenty of love will be given back! A tendency to put themselves out there" can put those with this placement in a precarious position: if a relationship doesn't work out, will their ego be shattered? Perhaps, but only until the next big event and an opportunity to shine yet again! As long as the vibes are good, these happy folks make for a partner whose lust for life is unmatched. Dancing the night away? Yes, it's on the dance card, along with romantic weekends, heartfelt sentiments and tender touches. A match with someone touched by Venus in Leo is likely to be filled with expression and acceptance and will no doubt be an endless party. Get those dancin' shoes ready!


passion sign
Libra
Mars in Libra bestows upon you an ability to express any anger or aggressive tendencies with tact, charm, and diplomacy. You probably do not enjoy conflict and may even go out of your way to avoid it. Your flexibility and balanced outlook make you an easy going, cooperative partner. You desire connections with others, and much energy is directed towards relationships and friendships. You are gracious and entertaining, and attract many, due to your curiosity and willingness to try anything new. You are sensual and affectionate with those you feel close to, and are gratified by lots of physical contact. You are extremely romantic. Setting may be very important to you, you may feel better in a room full of flutes and flowers. You offer a peaceful loving nature to your relationships and will be happiest with those who are demonstrative and expressive with words.



What is your Lucky Sign?
Virgo
You can find luck through work and simplicity. You belong somewhere that values your detail-oriented nature and supports your appreciation for the 'basics' of life -- honesty, hard work and practicality. Through your solid values, you can create exciting progress. Taking on more than you can handle can sabotage your luck, however. Your need to stay within perfectionist boundaries can also be limiting.

moon sign
Cancer
You respond very much to the emotional tone and atmosphere around you, and can be dominated by your fluctuating and unpredictable moods. You often appear irrational to others because you cannot always explain the reason or source of your feelings. Anyone who lives with you must accept your ups and downs and appreciate your need for times of withdrawal.
You are also very sympathetic and understand the unspoken feelings and needs of others. You take slights and rebuffs very personally and though you may forgive a transgression by a friend or loved one, you never forget it.

random stuffs to say:
-3 days before my bdae,i went snokelling with my handphone with me,now its dead.
its like every 3 months i'll have to change one phone,this the 3rd phone tt i either drop it or spoil it.oh well.i guess i needa wait til i have the time to earn for my new phone myself.its okie.
(sorry bro)

-well,my mp3 didnt survive long either.a day before my bdae,it was washed by the washing machine.
bud thanks to you=)brought me another,thank you.
bud,urgh..stress.i wonder hw long this mp3 can survive under me.

im thankful im stil alive n kicking right nw.

bud today was awesome.
met up with suek to revise her o lvl stuff with her.(initial plan)
bud end up eating & watching movies most of the time.

today was exactly the kind of day i wished for.
hey~come SP after o lar=)
oh well,u promise u Might drop by SP to study.rmb to sms me=)

although my electronic stuffs spoil,bud today really makeup for everyth.

thank you suek for today.
thank you for today.
im gg crazy soon.
once sch starts, i will turn mad.
dont be surprise to see me not in myself in anyday.
dont be surprise tt i'll shout at anyone's face nxt time.
& yea,sorry in advance.

i just dun get it.
i said im alone,bud i request for freedom.
the best thing i've done in this vacation is to lock myself in my room.
trust me,i feel so safe.

i suck.
agree?shh.jus dun let me hear it.

the plant that can make you go mute =X

Fun but tiring!

and can easily get lost too.lol.

have a break,
have a han kiat.

wah lao.
super lame.
before taking ferry,@ mersing jetty.


a cat with a dog's soul.


random pic.


reaching soon.



ferry cabin.


camwhoring.










chalet view.


beach.








WOWOW.MUSCLES.EH.its mine.




















sea urchin.dad brought it up.we swear we put it back before it died.lol.




these too,we did return.


btw,dad took it up,nt us.=X


AGAIN!MINE MINE.SHOO.




baby shark.


day 2
fishes




out to sea.










arrive at our 1st destination.snorkelling(thrs lots of beautiful corals here)




"Do i nd to get dwn?i duno hw to swim!"


no choice.

































...


marine park.(lots of fishes.dasmn pretty)























abit drunk@_@




it was really fun!lol.
the snorkelling was really great,fishes n corals.
even saw this huge huge huge grouper n "fish wall"
although gt cut by the corals n sunburned,its worth it=)

Hello, my name is shujing.
I was born on 02101991, do the maths yourself to find out how old i am.
Currently studying in Singapore Polytechnic Aeronautical Engineering.
Previously studied in Woodlands Ring Secondary & Marsilling Primary.=)

bs. dw. gny jeanie jiahe k'th nanjun s'ron singning sl. zm. ks. zk. Mel&B

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