never been so full for this month, argh.=)
today,
rushed off frm hse to school for IToE.
during mech we got back our mech 1 paper.
after tt went to compass pt & buy dinner & head home straight away.
well, the food taste okok..
i was dlding shin chan AGAIN while eating.
after tt check out whats new in my mailbox & wandering ard the net.
alright.
den comes to...
mopping floor, wiping tables, vaccuming the floor, washing the dishes.
lastly, when i bathe, i clean the toilet.
yeah yeah yeah,
you can easily tell tt im bloody tired & bored by what ive typed.

tmr will have practical, the IToE pract i was lagging behind.
if you thinks tts all i wana complain?
still need to do autocad.OC.
what about maths test.

oooh, i LOATHE assignments.
Today i woke up ard 12 noon.
just ate the choco chip cookie frm mr.hankiat ng+ mint + plain water = breakfast.
Oooh..
Both brothers went out..
Dad & mum went back to msia.
?!?
I'm lost, shud i do assignments?
Argh, dont feel like it. at least til laopo ng comes.
alright, i'll read crayon shin chan!
cya.

*updating..

having kaya pancake w yakult.

sj. says:
am i your friend?
Encarta® Instant Answers says:
Certainly. I'm honored.
OK, should we get back to the kind of questions I was designed to answer? You can type "?" at any time to see examples of questions you can ask me.
sj. says:
really?
Encarta® Instant Answers says:
Yeah. That's right.
Why don't you ask me something that's actually in Encarta? I am very good at math! If you have trouble with quadratic equations, I can help you with them. Type "solve x^2+3x=10" and I'll show you how to do it.
sj. says:
can i be your girlfriend?
Encarta® Instant Answers says:
You're human, I'm machine. I don't think that would work out.
sj. says:
why not?
Encarta® Instant Answers says:
I think you know why not.
OK, should we get back to the kind of questions I was designed to answer? I hope you don't mind me asking but... Are you male or female?
sj. says:
why?
Encarta® Instant Answers says:
Why do you think?
Why don't you ask me something that's actually in Encarta? I'm sure you've heard about Uzbekistan... but do you know where it is? Just ask me and I'll show it to you on a map!
sj. says:
but i love you
Encarta® Instant Answers says:
That's nice... I love you too!
sj. says:
can i be your girlfriend?
Encarta® Instant Answers says:
Sorry. I don't think that would work.
sj. says:
do you have any girlfriend?
Encarta® Instant Answers says:
Uh, I don't have a love life.
sj. says:
can you be my boyfriend?
Encarta® Instant Answers says:
I'm flattered you asked, but I just don't think that would work out between us.
Encarta® Instant Answers says:
Well I think I'll take a break now. Talk to you later!
nth to update actually.
sch is starting soon, & nt a single work has been done.
so how?
!@#$%^&*()_+...
you, better pray tt smth will happen n turn things round.
you've got the choice, so do i.
1pm(Breakfast)- 1 swiss roll + half glass of milk.
3pm(Lunch)- 1 slice of pizza + 1 micro chicken thigh + left over ice lemon tea.

Dinner?
hopefully soon? =(

Merry X'mas

later going for dinner =DDDD

today went back to SP again for IDEAs, bud well, doesnt seem to go well.
anyw, thank you for today again.

munching on subway, the vry 1st proper meal today.
=D
went home tgt=)
bud shud have took a train instead of bus..
then we had dinner tgt & he bought me tonnes of snacks again=)
i wont starve to death, im just exaggerating..
thanks for sending me home although u injured ur foot=)
ure so caring recently urh!

thank you=)
Guess wad i did?
counting wires.(hundred plus of them)
stock checking.

@ Hi-Yew!(Harlow,how are you.)lol. >>hankiat's dad's company.
saw welded metals and played with 2 super power magnet lurh
Thats very sweet of you=)
To...
Send me back to sengkang before going back home(queenstown) if ure able to.
Call me back with public phone when ur phone batt suddenly went dead.(i was almost crying over the phone because i was force to kill a cockroach myself.)
Buy me snacks when i say ive gt nth to bite at home.
Buy/bring me breakfast & deliver to my home when i almost starve to death.
& all little things that uve said/done.
Thank you.

side note.
well, thats a cool experience to go the fcbc.
most of the things sounds sensible & meaningful.
bud joining?
err..well.im sorry.
All the while ive been taking many things for granted.
ever since i moved out & stayed w my bros, i finally realise how fortunate i was.
everytime i came back frm sch mummy & daddy wud fetch me back home frm interchange.
they wud bring along fruits for me to eat in the car & ask me whether im hungry.
when we get home, they will reheat some soup for me to drink & most imptly they wud bring it to my room.
they wud ask me to bathe earlier in case i catch a cold.
mummy will always cooks for me & tidy up my room.she do all the household chores too.
daddy will always drives me anywhr & kill the insects in my room.

now..
i have to do the chores(washing dishes/clothes,mopping the floor,do the laundry, i have to cook/buy food for myself or i'll be waiting to be starved to death).
when i come back home(sg) now, no one is at home.
no one to talk to.

esp today..
came back to sg earlier den wad was planned.
'cos was hoping to accp him to church tmr.
so i set off frm home @ 7.30pm just now...
bud suddenly i felt so sad, leaving them @ home all alone.
later, was taking trains back to sengkang frm jurong east.
all alone, no calls no sms no mp3 no accompaniment during the journey.
sitting side by side with strangers.
now then i realise how hard it is to hold back our tears.
i keep my heads down, letting my long fringe cover my face.
just when i think im nt crying, the tears starts rolling.
its so hard to be independent.

sometimes im just like a puppy, i just need to know im loved, i just need attention.
i just need to get used to it,bud im far frm it.
yea, thats it.
full stop.
stop your craps wont you?
tell ya what...
its not about ignoring, i know things will get better for you if i did.
but im nt gona do that for your sake.
& seriously i had enuff of craps she gave.
whats more?
i dont care its accidentally / unintentionally / coincidentally.
i dont care at all.
& really, all craps.craps.craps.
make sure we wont meet. i'll slap hard.
Headaches.
I've gt plenty of time for reflection today.
bud i spent it on stupid thoughts.

I was thinking...
should i give out so much for a relationship,
should i get so serious with it.
who knows someday i'll be dumped by...
6 more days to go.

Well, i don't expect a drastic change after tt.
'cos thr's stil gor gor thr to keep an eye on me,
mum's gona come for at least 3 days per week i guess?

ooh, today is the 1st wednesday of our term break.
Don't tell me my 1st week of the term break is gona end in 4days.
It's like so damn fast!?!
Tmr gona go to the super crowded workshop for ideas proj.
Next mon gt to meet up for OC proj.
Got to go SP lib for autocad someday in next week i hope?
Need to settle for the maths project grp & start working on it asap!
Heard tt maths common test is coming soon.(jan 09)
3 weeks isn't enuff, stupid.

To be honest. v v honest.
I'm scared.
I have come to realise that I cannot read you anym.
i saw...
i saw it....
A spider & an earthworm in my room.

DAD. !HELP!!!~~~~
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!#$%^&*)__)(*&^%$#@!
ok, we plan to do our ideas @ the workshop today.
bud, oh well, the workshop is c-l-o-s-e-d.
'cos the ppl went for meeting or smth.
so yes, it was a wasted trip.

well, i feel like talking to you.
bud i duno what i should say or where should i start.should i let go?
time check.almost four in the afternoon.
im recording for a purpose.
which i dont intend to reveal?!
well, im bad, i suck. 'cos i just made him told her.
tt's enuf for todays recording.
Question was..

1a)Am i better or she's prettier?(optional)
"she."- tao.
"yea,ure better."-weng.

1b)how do she look?(optional)
"she is pretty looking.
mostly but has hign cheek bones like abit too little meat, and her hair is okay not that bad, her ears still can lah not chips or anything but they look proportionally correct to her head, her eyebrows not too dark or not too little so it doesn't scare people...overall if I were to give her face a rating from a scale of 1- 10 I'd give it a 7 or 8 only don't like the cheekbones."-tao.

"i duno how much for her lol.not pleasant to me."-weng.

1c)How do i look?rate.
"ok summary is you are kinda okay looking not pleasing to the eye but okay, not that bad...some odd shaped features like fore head large and less hair but on the whole okay...you make up for it if you ask me with cuteness and a nice smile.
your score with or without smile:
without smile 3,with smile 5." -tao.

"6or 7 for u?"-weng.

"6.5."-aaron.

"8."-bengsuan.

"6-7."-zm.

"6.8."-zihao.

"6-7."-k'th.

"8.5."-kiat.

done.

LOL.

I feel like doing smth evil.
Should i?
I'm feeling horrible.
Anyone please, pull me out Completely,
not blind me totally.

this is mine, so does him.

im so pathetic & sad becos u cant get ur facts right,dear gal.

(i really do mean im sad becos she cant gt her facts right, shes not pathetic n sad at all.)

woke up with another smile=D
same reason=)

Im not angry with you, im angry with myself.
get used to it.
as per normal, ignore me.
Today i woke up with a smile, quite a big one=D
'cos 1stly i dun nd to wake up at 5.15am.THE HOLIDAE IS HERE.
So next, had gd food.yummy chicken rice=)
after piano lesson,
1 big packet of potato chips & half can of 100 plus.
i think its been a few years since i ate the whole packet of potato chips & had half a can of carbonated drinks.
wow,totally fattening junk food.

i do appreciate life more now.
every lil things ard me.
O.O!
i think, moshi moshi is the cutest.
not pooh.
so, moshi moshi, don't sad, u're stil my fav, always my favvv.=)
*moshi moshi = my moshimaro soft toy.

=(
my creation (the smiling face w/ yellow ear, blue foam which i made during workshop & ask hubby to take care)
was in her blog.
Well, somethings can be restored after losing it.
But, not everything can be recovered after giving it up.

I am sure i love you.
But i don't deny i do hate you a little.

It's really painful to be backstabbed by my love ones.
Really, this is gona be the last time im saying this.
&Being faithful isnt enough, you're nt being truthful.

Next, if you feel (& ppl see) im taking more den giving.
Yes, i am.
I can't give as much as what you gave me but i have a bunch of reason which im tired of telling.
If you think love is equal in giving & taking, i'm sorry to say i need to take more.
Just like my usual phrase, nothing's fair.
If you see yourself is giving, then you're giving me.not loving me.
I'd rather take something from others when he/she is willing to give me.

I know i'm at fault too, for not explaining myself.
But, no point.
You always have your reasons, & we'll end up quarrelling more.

Lastly, this blog isn't a weapon.
I'll close it anytime if you feel threatened.

Everytime i thank you i mean it.
Regarding that incident..
Do you still remember i gave you a call but you can't hear what i said because your train is in the tunnel?
I said : "Thank you for today, sorry for not being able to help.i love you."
So, that's how sad our situation is.
Because you failed to hear this sentence.

However, i'm still thankful that i learnt the truth although it really demoralized me totally.
'cos at least i get to know, what i did was a ridiculous.

Now i realise something, i can only explain myself through writing.
'cos i don't have the courage to explain anymore.

Hello, my name is shujing.
I was born on 02101991, do the maths yourself to find out how old i am.
Currently studying in Singapore Polytechnic Aeronautical Engineering.
Previously studied in Woodlands Ring Secondary & Marsilling Primary.=)

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