All the while ive been taking many things for granted.
ever since i moved out & stayed w my bros, i finally realise how fortunate i was.
everytime i came back frm sch mummy & daddy wud fetch me back home frm interchange.
they wud bring along fruits for me to eat in the car & ask me whether im hungry.
when we get home, they will reheat some soup for me to drink & most imptly they wud bring it to my room.
they wud ask me to bathe earlier in case i catch a cold.
mummy will always cooks for me & tidy up my room.she do all the household chores too.
daddy will always drives me anywhr & kill the insects in my room.
now..
i have to do the chores(washing dishes/clothes,mopping the floor,do the laundry, i have to cook/buy food for myself or i'll be waiting to be starved to death).
when i come back home(sg) now, no one is at home.
no one to talk to.
esp today..
came back to sg earlier den wad was planned.
'cos was hoping to accp him to church tmr.
so i set off frm home @ 7.30pm just now...
bud suddenly i felt so sad, leaving them @ home all alone.
later, was taking trains back to sengkang frm jurong east.
all alone, no calls no sms no mp3 no accompaniment during the journey.
sitting side by side with strangers.
now then i realise how hard it is to hold back our tears.
i keep my heads down, letting my long fringe cover my face.
just when i think im nt crying, the tears starts rolling.
its so hard to be independent.
sometimes im just like a puppy, i just need to know im loved, i just need attention.i just need to get used to it,bud im far frm it.
